Faith

The Marker family has lost one of its own.  It seems as though it has been quite sometime since anything has directly hit the Emmett and Darlene Marker family.  My dad's sister Kathy has gone to heaven.  Word is that she passed away in her sleep.  Lucky lady!  Although it only makes sense... She lived a quite life and died a quiet death.  May all of her obstacles that she faced in life be no more and she be the happiest most beautiful angel in heaven. 

To Kathy:  I wish I would have gotten to know you better.  It seems there are many folks feeling as if they missed out on a lot of you life and feeling somewhat guilty as they feel they should've done more to see you than they did.  I hope your passing brings all of them to God and makes them understand the importance of their faith.  I feel as if God does give us second chances and they are eternal chances so for now until I get to meet you in heaven I will forever keep the faith and look forward to seeing you with your beautiful wings. 

Faith.  I have been stricken with Faith.  I have always been "catholic" and "religious" but not until recently have I really gotten in tune with spirituality.  I wonder what took so long or if I am normal.  I just seems that as of late something has hit me right in the face with this idea of eternal life and a greater being.  Yes, I know all the bible stories and said all my prayers but what I am talking about is a true belief and understanding.  I love it and I am going to run with it and live my life to the fullest not afraid of the unknown just maybe putting it off if the good Lord allows me to.  I feel as if I need to get into shape and live out a healthy life teaching my children the ways of the world and the church.  This is me and I am spiritual and I do have FAITH it is not just a wooden cut out in my living room anymore!  O and I also feel like getting a new tattoo but that is beside the point :)

Heavy Heart

I have spent the last week with a very heavy heart.  I never would've thought that beautiful little blondie that I used to spend many summer mornings watching Spongebob Squarepants would go to heaven at such a young age.  I do believe in heaven and all things eternal and I am elated that she is now an angel looking over us and has passed to a beautiful home with the Lord.  My heart just breaks for her family and her dear friends.  I hear the song, "If heaven wasn't so far away" several times a day it seems and that song is SO true.  Also, "God only cries for the living" (or something like that) it really hits home as well. 

I feel lucky to have gotten the chance to really get to know Mitch and Sara while I worked at the bank in Bartlett.  What good people.  They have gone through so much in just a few short years.  What is Gods plan for them?  I hope he guides them to whatever he is intending soon.  I just don't know how much one family can take.  I know he never gives us more than we can handle and I will keep faith in that and try not to question his intentions.  The entire community seems to be grieving the loss of Katarina and I pray that they find comfort in each other and can go on with loving memories until their day comes for each of us to meet her again.  I also wonder if the Methodist Church has flood insurance because I tend to have a tough time controlling the tears. 

For now I will hold my babies tight and hope everyone near and dear to me knows how much they mean to me and how much I would miss them if their tomorrow never comes. 

Catching Up

Gosh its been a long time since I have signed in... Not much has changed.  Jeslynn is now 7 as of Jan. 14th.  Lipstick was the highlight of the party.


We have done a lot of work in our home.  That started one Saturday morning in January and is still classified as a project.  I will get some pictures posted when we get a little more done.  Girl Scouts has been super busy with cookie sales.  The 18 girls sold over 1800 cookies this year!  Wow.  Sara and I had a good time sorting them out for the girls to pick up. (I guess I should say I had a good time, not sure I should speak for her)  Eric has been very busy even making a few trips to Texas.  Doesn't seem like we see much of him. 

At school we are doing a Wellness Challenge.  It has been an amazing motivator.  Meghan is my partner and she is such a trooper.  I wish I could get in all the minutes that she does... She's a workout warrior.  And bless her heart she even decided to let me talk her into trying some Yoga... (we thought we could do that on light days..)  Yoga is tough.  It isn't so much getting your heart racing and breathing hard as your body stretching and toning.  I was dead wrong about it being easy!  We are also doing the C25K training.  We are on Week #3 now.  Eyeyeyeyeee my calves feel as if they are ready to escape my skin and run to the whirlpool when we are getting close to finishing.  It feels so good to get done and know that you gave it all you had.  Yesterday we had this bright idea to do a little Yoga and then do the C25K.  So after 40 min of Yoga we headed over to the gym to do Day 3 of C25K.  Silly.  We did make it through and when I got home I was planted in front of the TV for a night of Biggest Loser and Husker BB and American Idol AND Charlie Sheen (nutso).  Wow. Tuesday is a big TV night for me.  O and Monday is of course the Bachelor.  I think those are the only days that I devote my evening to the tube though.  I think :) 

I cannot believe in 3 months I will be graduated from high school for 10 years.  Unbelievable.  I shall spend the next 3 months shaping up for summer and the events that come with it.  It is going to be another crazy busy summer and school will be started again before I know it.